[Give him a moment to look up from what he's doing; he'll pause for a moment before he wanders over and takes it, though he doesn't sit down just yet.]
I haven't said anything to Murdock regarding it; it isn't as though I know him that well, in the scheme of things.
[Once Cumore takes the beer from him, Derek leans back against the couch and sits cross legged.]
It might be a blessing for you to not know him well. Though I wish my cousin did. He refuses to believe that Matt can be a dick. He's so wrapped up in his feelings that he doesn't think that Matt is capable of being a stubborn ass.
[Derek pops open his beer but doesn't drink it quiet yet.]
And he wont' believe me because... [Derek gulps.]... because of what happened between me and Matt in January. We... Matt and I, got into a huge fight and things were said that I am not proud of. But everyone holds it against me. I'm scared that Matt's going to hurt Foggy... because he hurt me and I'm sure he isn't even sorry for it.
[Derek's voice almost cracks at the end of that. He takes in a deep breath and raises his beer to is lips to take a long swig.]
Oh, I'm sure he wouldn't listen even if you hadn't fought with Murdock about things, simply because people in love tend to be ridiculous.
[...Anyway.
He sets down the beer nearby while he finishes messing with the violin; he doesn't join Derek on the couch, he just pulls out the piano bench and settles on it with his back to the instrument proper, toying with the tab on the beer without opening it just yet.]
So, one thing at a time. What did Murdock do to you, exactly...?
[Derek lets out a sigh and runs a hand over his face.]
You're going to need some bloody context to understand...
[Derek takes another sip.]
Remember how I was a wreck back in January because my ex left me? The beginning of the month was exceptionally bad for me... and it just got worse, thus the excessive drinking I was doing when I was over here in January. Because... this all could have been avoided if Matt minded his own damn business. He walk in on me in the back bathroom at the precinct crying my bloody eyes out because it had only been a few days since she had left and I was having a shitty day. He practically cornered me in a bathroom stall, asking me what was wrong, how could he help, should he get Tatsuo. I told him to go away and he wouldn't listen. He just kept pushing me... and I snapped.
He ended up asking me if something happened between and my ex and... I just remember being so... frustrated! I told him I hadn't wanted him to come in and te only reason he was there was because he his stupid super senses could hear me. He didn't actually have to address it just because it was his friend. I mean, what guy actually confronts one of his friends in the bathroom at work who happens to be crying? There was a reason I was in the back bathroom of the precinct was TO BE ALONE!
But then he goes, "It doesn't matter how I know. You wouldn't act dumb if you knew I was this upset about something!" But, the thing is, I actually wouldn't act dumb because I'm not a dick, but I wouldn't do it in the bathroom. I would have found him later or texted him later. I know when to mind my own business. And what made me angry was that he was acting like we share everything which is a load of bullshit. I knew he was keeping things from me then and I know he's keeping things from me now.
But to make a long story short, I ended up calling him out on not telling me he was bi. I know it was the wrong thing to do, or even point out, but I was just so angry and upset, I- I just wanted to to fuck off and leave me alone. Which of course only resulted in him denying it all, liking Foggy, being bi, which makes sense since he hadn't even really accepted that part of himself at the time. And to make matters worse, as we were yelling at each other, I pushed him and then used magic on him. I used the leg locker curse on him and left him there in the bathroom. I didn't even know the counter curse at the time.
[Derek lets out a sigh.]
I felt horrible for what I did. I went to his apartment multiple times afterwards to try and apologize, but... I just felt so bad. And it wasn't until Tatsuo brought the two of us together were we even able to talk. But he... he wouldn't accept my apology, not at first anyway. He was critiquing it right in front of me Alex. He was defending his actions and used the excuse of being a good friend. He made it a point to saying that he was under the spell for fifteen minutes. He started attacking my magic and saying how dangerous it was, and... IT'S NOT!
[Derek voice starts to crack and he lets out a shaky breath.]
All I wanted to do was apologize, have him understand my perspective, and he wasn't even listening half the time, only caring about himself. I mean, he's Catholic right? What happened to forgive others seventy times seven? At least I think that's how that reference goes.
[Derek take a sip of he beer.]
So now when I try to tell Foggy that Matt can be a stubborn git, he doesn't believe me, because the only reference I have is when I apologized to him for the dick thing I did. He thinks it's well deserved. Which is bloody annoying because no one should be treated like that when they are trying their best to apologize.
[Derek had been ranting for a while and realizes that hadn't even been looking at Cumore for his reaction. Slowly he turns his head to look at his friend. He is really hoping there isn't a judgmental look on his face.]
[...Well, it's incredibly obvious that Cumore doesn't know what he should be doing with his face, honestly. He's sort of staring, but he doesn't seem judgemental per se - more like he's trying very hard to process what the hell just happened.]
...Honestly, whether you should have said any of that or not aside, why in the world is no one acknowledging how tactless that was on his part? If he wants to offer help he can do it when things have calmed down a bit, like an acceptable person. To say nothing of all this whatnot with the apology... Really, I can't say I blame you for being displeased.
[To put it gently.]
I've never really cared for Murdock, personally; he's always been decent enough to me, but I can't say I like him much. I don't really know why.
[...He seriously has no idea; he isn't sure if there's legitimately no reason or if he's forgotten it along with whatever was going on with that stone he broke.]
Good to know that it wasn't completely unfounded on my part, I suppose.
[Derek listens as Cumore is talking and as he does, a sense of relief comes over him and it feels like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders. FINALLY SOME GETS HIS POINT OF VIEW!]
THANK YOU!
[Derek cradles his head in his hands for a moment before looking up again.]
Why can't more people be like you? I think at some point Matt tried to offer an opportunity to talk to him later, but that was after a battering ram of questions! AND...[Derek points a finger at Cumore.] you know what else he did? Told Cleo. I mean, she already dislikes me enough and he goes off and tells her what happened.I mean, yeah she found him in the bathroom, still leg-locked, but it doesn't bloody well mean that she has to track me down after work and demand to talk to me about what I said and did to Matt. And pray tell what was I suppose to do? Say "no" and risk getting my arm broken? She's fucking ripped! So, I try having a civil conversation with her in a coffee shop and she just starts attack me, verbally I mean, about my magic, what I did, what I said. AS IF I DIDN'T FEEL SHITTY ENOUGH! SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO RUB IT IN! AND IN PUBLIC!
[Derek is starting to feel really angry, his grip on his bottle of beer is like a death grip and his other fist is in a fist.]
[He isn't here to chide him, not really, but at the same time getting angry about this isn't going to go over well; just...chill a bit, and Cumore will try to ignore the fact that he's pretty sure that sort of tone is the one Alexei and LeBlanc tended to take with him when he was overexcited about something.]
People really do need to stop giving you trouble because of the magic and all - that's unbelievably tiresome, especially since I doubt you would use it on a person without good reason. If Murdock isn't going to keep to himself and instead insists on cornering you somewhere, of course you're going to ensure that he can't keep doing that for a while, it's a natural conclusion. A bit extreme, perhaps, but not altogether something that can't be understood.
This entire thing sounds like a case of people being unable to mind their own business, at the center of it.
[Derek chill? LOL! Derek flings his hands up in the air in exasperation.]
Exactly! It is my privacy being invaded here, yet I am the one coming out at the bad guy and whose feelings don't seem to matter! And I want to warn my cousin a Matt and his stupid stubborn ass, but I can't think of a way to tell him that he will actually believe me.
Who? Matt or Foggy? I don't see Matt taking you telling his he's a dick well. And Foggy... what would you even say? Hey, Derek talked to me and he's worried that your boyfriend will eventually metaphorically stab you in the back?
Derek, I love you in the dearest and most platonic way possible, but you have the charisma of a rock - there are infinitely more diplomatic ways to handle things than any of that.
Well, what would you say since this rock is completely incompetent at talking to people he's known since he was a kid? Sometimes I feel they don't take me seriously because I'm younger than them. As if I don't have enough life experience or something.
Really, it's just a matter of talking to your cousin, congratulating him on the relationship, and eventually seeing if he still has any viable concerns and proceeding from there depending on what he says. It isn't as though I haven't given him advice before; as such, it won't necessarily look odd coming from me.
[Derek shifts a bit on the couch to face Cumore a bit better.]
C-could you? I... I don't know if I could do it without making him mad. Like you said... I'm not the most tactful person. Though... if he finds out I asked you to talk to him, well, that might make him mad.
[Derek lets out a moan.]
Part of me is thinking I should keep my ruddy nose out of this... but... I am worried about Foggy getting the rug pulled out from under him...
Your name won't come up if it isn't immediately relevant. It'll strictly be a matter of personal interest and curiosity, as far as your cousin is concerned.
Alex, I'd really appreciate it if you could do this for me and tell me how it goes. I'll so owe you one for pretty much putting you in the middle of this..
You know... [Derek leans back against the couch.] ever since we've been friends, I haven't known you to go on a date. Why is that? More committed to your job or you just don't want to deal with something serious? Not that I blame you if that's the reason of course.
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[Give him a moment to look up from what he's doing; he'll pause for a moment before he wanders over and takes it, though he doesn't sit down just yet.]
I haven't said anything to Murdock regarding it; it isn't as though I know him that well, in the scheme of things.
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It might be a blessing for you to not know him well. Though I wish my cousin did. He refuses to believe that Matt can be a dick. He's so wrapped up in his feelings that he doesn't think that Matt is capable of being a stubborn ass.
[Derek pops open his beer but doesn't drink it quiet yet.]
And he wont' believe me because... [Derek gulps.]... because of what happened between me and Matt in January. We... Matt and I, got into a huge fight and things were said that I am not proud of. But everyone holds it against me. I'm scared that Matt's going to hurt Foggy... because he hurt me and I'm sure he isn't even sorry for it.
[Derek's voice almost cracks at the end of that. He takes in a deep breath and raises his beer to is lips to take a long swig.]
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[...Anyway.
He sets down the beer nearby while he finishes messing with the violin; he doesn't join Derek on the couch, he just pulls out the piano bench and settles on it with his back to the instrument proper, toying with the tab on the beer without opening it just yet.]
So, one thing at a time. What did Murdock do to you, exactly...?
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You're going to need some bloody context to understand...
[Derek takes another sip.]
Remember how I was a wreck back in January because my ex left me? The beginning of the month was exceptionally bad for me... and it just got worse, thus the excessive drinking I was doing when I was over here in January. Because... this all could have been avoided if Matt minded his own damn business. He walk in on me in the back bathroom at the precinct crying my bloody eyes out because it had only been a few days since she had left and I was having a shitty day. He practically cornered me in a bathroom stall, asking me what was wrong, how could he help, should he get Tatsuo. I told him to go away and he wouldn't listen. He just kept pushing me... and I snapped.
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[Okay, so far so...reasonable? Maybe not rational, but reasonable.]
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Right?
He ended up asking me if something happened between and my ex and... I just remember being so... frustrated! I told him I hadn't wanted him to come in and te only reason he was there was because he his stupid super senses could hear me. He didn't actually have to address it just because it was his friend. I mean, what guy actually confronts one of his friends in the bathroom at work who happens to be crying? There was a reason I was in the back bathroom of the precinct was TO BE ALONE!
But then he goes, "It doesn't matter how I know. You wouldn't act dumb if you knew I was this upset about something!" But, the thing is, I actually wouldn't act dumb because I'm not a dick, but I wouldn't do it in the bathroom. I would have found him later or texted him later. I know when to mind my own business. And what made me angry was that he was acting like we share everything which is a load of bullshit. I knew he was keeping things from me then and I know he's keeping things from me now.
But to make a long story short, I ended up calling him out on not telling me he was bi. I know it was the wrong thing to do, or even point out, but I was just so angry and upset, I- I just wanted to to fuck off and leave me alone. Which of course only resulted in him denying it all, liking Foggy, being bi, which makes sense since he hadn't even really accepted that part of himself at the time. And to make matters worse, as we were yelling at each other, I pushed him and then used magic on him. I used the leg locker curse on him and left him there in the bathroom. I didn't even know the counter curse at the time.
[Derek lets out a sigh.]
I felt horrible for what I did. I went to his apartment multiple times afterwards to try and apologize, but... I just felt so bad. And it wasn't until Tatsuo brought the two of us together were we even able to talk. But he... he wouldn't accept my apology, not at first anyway. He was critiquing it right in front of me Alex. He was defending his actions and used the excuse of being a good friend. He made it a point to saying that he was under the spell for fifteen minutes. He started attacking my magic and saying how dangerous it was, and... IT'S NOT!
[Derek voice starts to crack and he lets out a shaky breath.]
All I wanted to do was apologize, have him understand my perspective, and he wasn't even listening half the time, only caring about himself. I mean, he's Catholic right? What happened to forgive others seventy times seven? At least I think that's how that reference goes.
[Derek take a sip of he beer.]
So now when I try to tell Foggy that Matt can be a stubborn git, he doesn't believe me, because the only reference I have is when I apologized to him for the dick thing I did. He thinks it's well deserved. Which is bloody annoying because no one should be treated like that when they are trying their best to apologize.
[Derek had been ranting for a while and realizes that hadn't even been looking at Cumore for his reaction. Slowly he turns his head to look at his friend. He is really hoping there isn't a judgmental look on his face.]
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...Honestly, whether you should have said any of that or not aside, why in the world is no one acknowledging how tactless that was on his part? If he wants to offer help he can do it when things have calmed down a bit, like an acceptable person. To say nothing of all this whatnot with the apology... Really, I can't say I blame you for being displeased.
[To put it gently.]
I've never really cared for Murdock, personally; he's always been decent enough to me, but I can't say I like him much. I don't really know why.
[...He seriously has no idea; he isn't sure if there's legitimately no reason or if he's forgotten it along with whatever was going on with that stone he broke.]
Good to know that it wasn't completely unfounded on my part, I suppose.
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THANK YOU!
[Derek cradles his head in his hands for a moment before looking up again.]
Why can't more people be like you? I think at some point Matt tried to offer an opportunity to talk to him later, but that was after a battering ram of questions! AND...[Derek points a finger at Cumore.] you know what else he did? Told Cleo. I mean, she already dislikes me enough and he goes off and tells her what happened.I mean, yeah she found him in the bathroom, still leg-locked, but it doesn't bloody well mean that she has to track me down after work and demand to talk to me about what I said and did to Matt. And pray tell what was I suppose to do? Say "no" and risk getting my arm broken? She's fucking ripped! So, I try having a civil conversation with her in a coffee shop and she just starts attack me, verbally I mean, about my magic, what I did, what I said. AS IF I DIDN'T FEEL SHITTY ENOUGH! SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO RUB IT IN! AND IN PUBLIC!
[Derek is starting to feel really angry, his grip on his bottle of beer is like a death grip and his other fist is in a fist.]
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[He isn't here to chide him, not really, but at the same time getting angry about this isn't going to go over well; just...chill a bit, and Cumore will try to ignore the fact that he's pretty sure that sort of tone is the one Alexei and LeBlanc tended to take with him when he was overexcited about something.]
People really do need to stop giving you trouble because of the magic and all - that's unbelievably tiresome, especially since I doubt you would use it on a person without good reason. If Murdock isn't going to keep to himself and instead insists on cornering you somewhere, of course you're going to ensure that he can't keep doing that for a while, it's a natural conclusion. A bit extreme, perhaps, but not altogether something that can't be understood.
This entire thing sounds like a case of people being unable to mind their own business, at the center of it.
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Exactly! It is my privacy being invaded here, yet I am the one coming out at the bad guy and whose feelings don't seem to matter! And I want to warn my cousin a Matt and his stupid stubborn ass, but I can't think of a way to tell him that he will actually believe me.
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[He's not sure how much he wants to get involved, but...might as well offer, really.]
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Derek, I love you in the dearest and most platonic way possible, but you have the charisma of a rock - there are infinitely more diplomatic ways to handle things than any of that.
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Well, what would you say since this rock is completely incompetent at talking to people he's known since he was a kid? Sometimes I feel they don't take me seriously because I'm younger than them. As if I don't have enough life experience or something.
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I doubt he has concerns. [small>A beat.] So... you would really do that for me? Talk to him?
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Well, yes? If you wanted me to, I don't see why not.
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C-could you? I... I don't know if I could do it without making him mad. Like you said... I'm not the most tactful person. Though... if he finds out I asked you to talk to him, well, that might make him mad.
[Derek lets out a moan.]
Part of me is thinking I should keep my ruddy nose out of this... but... I am worried about Foggy getting the rug pulled out from under him...
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Thanks mate.
[Derek takes another sip of his beer.]
So... anything new with you?
[Great transition Derek... A+]
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Not terribly much, really. I've been doing well enough? Although all of this is serving as such a solid reminder of why I don't date.
[Feelings. Ew.]
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I...don't know, I've just never been up for it. Honestly, I've never dated before.
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